I hate this feeling of lacking. Lacking motivation, lacking confidence, lacking this, that, and the other. I am so tired of lacking. And yet I can’t seem to find a way to come back from it. From the World of Lacking Lackingness.
At what point do you say, “Enough is enough”? How do you tell someone that its gone? That you can’t feel any emotion? How can you convey the constant weight of worthlessness on your shoulders? And at what line do you seek help? What do you say when they give up? When they say they don’t know what to do anymore? Would it be better to just let it all go? Would it stop? I don’t know if I can overcome this.
I really dont know if i can do this anymore. The constant freaking out. The violence because of it. My sanity is already questionable and yet here you are putting my anxiety through the roof. For the sake of my mental health, something has to change. Something has got to give. I cant do this. I cant.
Im depressed. I feel bad all the fucking time. And you wonder why I lack motivation and I just don’t give a shit any more. Hmm.
Am i making the right decision? Idk anymore.
A response. You ask for a response, but how can I respond? How can I reflect what I feel onto this paper? A young boy lost his life watching his father run. Mothers, sisters, fathers, cousins, brothers all injured, whether physically or emotionally. How do you convey the sadness you feel when poor innocent children and adults are now gone because they attended a charity event? Is this what our country has become? Massacre after massacre with human life no longer something that is valued? We spend our time worrying about the monsters over seas but what about the monsters in our own borders? Taking human life had become okay. Taking the lives of children has become the norm. How do you respond? Welcome to the new America.
The worst feeling in the world is having found the love of your life and knowing that you’re going to lose them.
Not to be a bitch, but i pay just as much as you to live here. Ill turn the temp as low or high as i damn well please.
There’s no nice way to say “don’t touch me”: Even if you say please, it still sounds bitchy.